office hang-up

I'm so not in the mood to work today, and I'm terriby bored!! (can you not tell? I'm in the office, and I'm blogging).. The whole morning I was just staring at the computer, not at all caring whether Ellen de Generes notices that I am doing nothing. My new boss walks quite a lot (especially now that she's so busy with the new released product). And everytime she does, she has to pass by my place.

I've been under the "care" of my new boss aka Ellen De generes (because she reminds me of her) since June. My original boss, thin-as-a-matchstick (perhaps everytime he eats, his brain absorbs all the nutrients and leaves nothing to his seemingly unfed body), who hired me and had been my boss for 2 years, who is very technically knowledgeable but with no air of superiority, reasonably not fussy, trusted his people and didnt bother us much so long as we get the job done, result-oriented, an efficient 8 to 5:30 guy, after more than 10 years in Creative had left..

"Yo, Cris,
..
Sadly it's true.. it's about time for me to try my luck at a different corporation altogether.
Sorry to have to leave you here like that!
But I'm sure you're in good hands and there will still be lots of interesting stuff to do...
..
"

He's now in ***, and perhaps unknowingly, he left us to a boss quite opposite his character.. - Over-confident, wants attention, comes to the office early and leaves very late, talks very loudly, and very fussy..

I hope I won't be seeing a case of what people say about females bosses being harder to deal with.. - Women having PMS and all.. and if she has neither a social life nor love life, it's worse..

Our moving to the main building and my being seated near Ellen ruffled my already established comfort zone.. I now feel like I "have" to come to the office on time! Which is not easy for me, I must say..

In fairness, she's good at what she does.. I admire her dedication to her job.. I really do.. And actually, she leaves me alone with my stuffs most of the time (she once told me "i dont check out on you because i know you know what you're doing"),
It's still too early to tell, but I really feel like she's not the boss I can grow with.. We don't match!!

If I'm not late, I try to grab the Today newspaper on my way to the office.. This morning, I would be late for work again.. But as I was approaching the mrt station, surprisingly, I saw that there's no queue at the newspaper stand. And I decided to get one. All of a sudden, people start arriving..
So I rushed to get to the stand first.. But those people reached there first and was already forming 'their' queue.. The end of it is at the other side! I felt it's unfair to me if I had to go to the end of their queue. - and it's started to get longer and longer by the millisecond.. So I didn't. (My stubborn ass told me to stay put.. cos I had my queue, it's just that nobody followed suit)
I stood there in front ready to grab the newspaper.. my hand was already on it, when the newspaper uncle pulled the paper back.. He scowled at me and gestured with his hand that I go queue at the back.. I felt my face turn so red.. (anger or embarrassment, I wasn't sure). I stared back at him but he really wouldn't give me my newspaper!
I didn't want to argue. How could I? I was at the wrong end..
So I just left with my face still flushing red..

you're never lost if you don't know where you're going

In "Alice in Wonderland", Alice is walking and comes to a fork in the road..
Staring up into a tree she sees the Cheshire Cat.
She quickly asks the cat "Which road should I take?"
The cat replies back, "Where are you going?" Alice answers, "I don't know."
To this the Cheshire Cat responds, "I guess it doesn't matter which road you take!"

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it's been a while... no entry for october..
i'm never a religious blogger.. pag may time (and if i feel like writing), write.. pag walang time (or when meron pero activated ang tamad mode), which happens most times, eh di hndi.
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i love october.. i feel special.. kasi birthday month ko..
the snippet above is related sa theme na gusto on my bday, which is "which road should i take?"
but where do i want to go ba? this in turn asks, what do i want to do with my life?
haha! here i go again.. haven't i been asking that same thing every year on my birthday? and actually, everyday of the year for that matter...
natapos na ang october, and as always, the question's still left hanging.
sana lang next year, bago na ang bday theme ko...

Are you happy? Are you doing this moment exactly what you MOST want to do in the world? ... Think think think think... Naaah!

I'll be home for christmas

It's already a ber month and it only means one thing to me. Lalo na pag narinig ko na ipatugtog sa radyo ang "Christmas in our Hearts" ni Jose Mari Chan, pasko na talaga...

To our family, christmas isn't just a so-so holiday. It's not very grand, though. But it sure is very special. Cguro hndi obvious sa ibang tao kasi we don't have christmas lights sa labas ng bahay, nor do we have reindeers and nativity sets na nkadisplay sa labas, but september pa lang, nagpe-prepare na kmi for christmas. We do shopping already, lalo na mama ko and si achel. More so ang papa ko. It's the season of the year na we'd be so excited to shop things to give to other people, especially sa relatives.. Actually, sa dami ng kamag-anak nmin, cguro June pa lang dpat nagsisimula na. hehe.. Papa really enjoys it. Dun ko nkikita how generous he really is.
Na even if there are times na nkikita ko how ungrateful other people are, he'd still gladly give. Mas mabuti na daw yung ikaw ang nagbibigay kesa ikaw ang binibigyan...



Kaming magkakapatid were few lucky children who once believed in Santa. When we were young, hndi na kmi kailangan pilitin matulog pag dec.24 kasi we'd willingly do that so that santa would come and deliver our gifts.. One time nga, I saw on tv, sabi nung newscaster Santa daw would be delayed sa pagdeliver kasi may nakabangga sya sa clouds.. haha, and I believed that.
Mga panahong yun, hndi pa nmin alam na may nabibiling santa style na medyas, kaya ang
sinasabit nmin ay yung totoong medyas.. hehe. Some of the gifts I received from Santa were towel, apples and chocolates. We were happy kahit sa anong gift basta may laman yung mga medyas namin..Of course eventually, nabuking din namin si santa. Sya pala si papa.

Other people argue that making children believe in Santa is not a Christian thing to do. (It's not as if we forget about Christ). For me, it is non-Christian if you make your kids forget about Christ, and all Santa on Christmas day. Let's just think of it this way, Santa, together with the reindeers, kris-kringles, bibingka, christmas parties is only the box, Jesus is still the Jack. My parents being santa when we were kids brought us good, and so, god-willing, when I have children, I plan to pass it to them, too.

Not counting those people who purposely forget kasi wala nman panggastos kahit maliit na noche buena man lang, how many people nowadays could still smell and feel the christmas breeze? I bet, konti na lang. Pero ang mga tao sa bahay, masyado sensitive sa christmas spirit. mama plays christmas songs already. Kaya sobra sya worried now that i'm away- thinking na bka pati Christmas and new year I'll spend way from them. Of course nag-worry din ako..

I don't want to spend Christmas and new year here. I can't imagine the lungkot.Although I love my simple life dito sa Singapore, ibang usapan na pag pasko and bagong taon. Like last friday, bing, she, je and i went to the Lantern Festival in Chinese Garden. Pati family nila Revs. Cool yung place! Parang new year! With lights, of course Lantern nga eh. Mrami ding accessories for sale like umiilaw na kwintas, shades, lanterns, balloons and madami pa. Yung mga bata, may suot na head dresses. sympre kami din noh.Sobra enjoy.

Yeah, parang new year din nga.. pero Christmas season won't be "It" without family..
Dati, sobrang worried ako kung mkakauwi ako in time for the holidays. Ngayon konting worry na lang kasi approved na yung leaves ko.. I'll be home for Christmas and new year. =) Not unless something grrrrr comes up.. (think positive, matutuloy ako).

Mooncakes Galore

It's mid-autumn festival (aka mooncake festival) this sept18, and so panahon ng mooncake dito. Before, I consider mooncake to be nothing more than a special hopia with salted eggyolk sa loob with a very nice packaging.. Hndi ko alam na waaaah, mahal pala sya!!

There are different kinds of mooncake. Pero before I didn't even bother to know kasi I just eat whatever's there. I never bought any until kanina.

This whole week kasi, there is a Staff Canteen Sale of Mooncakes. discounted price from different restos and hotel.. Kung hndi discounted, wag na lang!

Actually pwedeng hndi na ako bumili eh.. Kasi nabusog na ako sa kakatikim.. hehe..
Kaya lang, naisip ko baka pag gusto ko na ulit kumain, wala ng sale. sayang nman if ever.. Last week, halos ako nkaubos nung dala ni burton sa bahay. 2 pieces yun. He ate 1/4, carol ate 1/4, I ate 1/4, Jerrha ate 1/4. Then sympre meron pang isang buo.. guess what? ako na kumain nun lahat.. Pero the next day na yun, almost sleeping time na kasi nun eh. hehe..

Back to mooncake, you can choose either baked skin or snow skin. I heard, yung gusto nung mraming tao is yung snow skin. Flavors ng mooncakes are lotus seed, yung iba double yolk pa if you want cholesterol , red bean, chestnut, pandan, durian, green tea (unlike yung mapait na greentea mooncake sa starbucks, the one i tasted kanina is much better).. meron ding vegetarian mooncake.. There's even an icecream mooncake. pero hndi ko natikman, sayang.. and mrami pang iba. yung iba kasi wlang free tastes eh..

Yung mga binili ko, ewan ko kung kelan ko mauubos.. Sabi nman ng nagtitinda, it can last up to a month..
Well, that's about it... knowledgeable na ako sa mooncake.. trivia for my stomach..

Nothing stays the same

"Did you know Daddy used to be a little boy like you?
And someday you are going to grow up to be big and tall just like your daddy!
You'll be so big, I won't be able to pull you into my lap anymore."

"But mommy, I'll always want to sit on your lap!"
Mommy smiled, "Can you imagine Daddy trying to sit in Grandmops'lap?"
"But mommy, I want thing to always stay the same."
Mommy sighed, "They won't. Nothing stays the same; things are always changing.
Someday you will be a big man like daddy, and I will have gray hair and lots of wrinkles."
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Change is essential... We won't have fulfillment if we don't embrace change. But sometimes how I wish na when we want some things the way they used to be we can just easily have them changed back..

I miss being a little kid. Dati, pag masakit ang ngipin ko, hihiga ako sa lap ng mama ko then hihimasin nya ng vicks yung pisngi ko hanggang mawala yung sakit.. I was so little then na when I do dishes, nakatungtong pa ako sa upuan kasi hndi ko abot ang lababo.. Those were the days na naglalaro pa kami ng football, patintero and touching runner sa kalsada.

I miss my teenage days and nights na pag bakasyon tatambay kmi ng mga pinsan ko sa harapan ng compound namin hanggang umaga without a care in the world. Mag-aambag kami to buy pandesal, hanggang sumuko na ang mga bibig sa kakatawa..

I miss school.. Mga hndi maubos-ubos na contests and performances; botohan para sa class officers; assignment ng cleaners; assembly para sa flag ceremony; jail booth and marriage booth sa foundation day; pagtambay namin sa SM foodcourt after class; my classmates; my crushes and admirers; and others too many to mention.

But as much as we want to experience life, we have to accept that we are getting older everytime we live it. Come end of this month, Junjun, our bunso, will turn 20. (Oh my gosh! Next month I'll be 25!) Parang kelan lang he's still so maliit.

Wala na nman ako sa bday nya. Last year nasa Cebu ako. Year before that, I was in Japan. Pag nasa malayo ka, people you love grow old without you noticing.. Kaya sometimes I wish na Singapore is just another world where time doesn't exist. Just a place where I get to experience a different life, improve myself, fulfill my dreams...
That when I get back home, everything's just the way I like it..

Nobody grows old.
My mama still 45, my sis 22, my papa 53 and my bro 19...
Me and my friends are still in our early or mid-twenties...
Fulfilled, happy, yet always young.. pwede ba yun?

Definitely not.. So I guess I just have to embrace every moment, kasi the clock is always clockwise, never the other way.

Homerun

Sobra nakaka-touch. It's been 15 minutes na since the movie started when sinimulan ko sya iwatch. Basta for some reason, the boy in the movie lost his sister's shoes.
The siblings realized that revealing the loss would upset their financially-strapped parents. So they decided not to tell, and deal with the situation themselves. - Share the pair that the brother have.

The girl's class was in the morning, the boy's was in the afternoon. Everyday after her class, the girl would hurriedly run back home to his brother so she could pass the shoes to him.

One time on her way home, nalaglag nya yung isang shoe sa canal. Nakakamelt ng puso yung scene. Habang inaagos yung shoe, naiiyak yung bata. Nakuha din nman afterwards. Because of that, na-late yung boy sa pagpasok. It was his second time na to be late, so pinagalitan sya ng principal and was punished by requiring him to come early to school the next Monday at 7am. It's a predicament- both of them going to school in the morning.

Another time nalaglag na nman yung isang shoe sa canal. Para hndi na maagos ng canal yung shoe nya, she threw her bag sa canal para harangan yung sapatos nya.
..kawawa

- translation nung background song
A firm breathe of determination.
We may have nothing
But we will never think of submitting
We may have nothing
But we will never think of quitting
As long as our hearts are together,
We have everyhing we need

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8/31 2:30pm

hehehe.. I'll continue my bitin kong kwento..
Here goes..

Third time the boy came to school late, the principal kicked him out for good. Pero may naawa sa kanya when he was walking out of the gate. That man talked to the principal and so hindi na natuloy ang pag-kick out nya.

The boy in the story did everything he could to find shoes for his sister. He even resorted to doing the school homework of a rich kid and his buddies in exhange for a one year use of shoes.. that didn't work out..
(By the way, they used to be friends, but they separated and got divided into two groups..)

Minsan, the girl noticed na kamukha ng nwawala nyang shoes yung shoes ng isang schoolmate nya (punit-punit din). So she and her brother went to the girl's home. They saw yung girl with her very old grandfather.. mahirap din... They agreed not to get it na lang, and just find her another pair. Would I have done the same?

Few days later, nakasalubong nila yun girl and she's wearing new shoes. They asked where her old shoes were. Andun na daw sa basurahan somewhere. The siblings ran towards the place hoping to salvage the shoes. Eventually they got yung isang pares. Pero the other one is at the middle of the road. That time, merong violent rally.. to cut the story short, basta nasira yung shoe na yun.. And so wala din nangyari!

Just when the boy run out of ideas, the opportunity presented itself. If he'd manage to get third place in the Inter-School Cross Country Run, he would win a pair of school shoes. After proving himself to the coach, he qualified to join the race.

During the race, one obstacle was a muddy track, around one foot deep. The boys got stuck there like rats trapped by a sticky mosquito trap. The bida had to lose his own pair so he could move on. (If it was you, would you have left your shoes behind?) His always running to school paid off. He won!

Kaya lang, he won first place so he won the medal, not the shoes. It is the rich kid who won third prize. Being young and innocent, he tried to talk the rich kid into trading the medal for the shoes, but to no avail. The rich kid threw the shoes to the river...

The ending.. Eventually the rich kid realized the poor boy's situation. When he's about to go to England to study, he gave the poor boy and his sister a pair of shoes each..

There's quite a number of scenes pa na worth noting.. Aside from the main storyline about the kids being shoeless, marami pang sub-plots that focused on friendship, love of family, etc... Very nice..